You never let go.

I will admit that I have felt a little distant from God lately. I know he is here with me, all around; yet I have not felt intimate with him in awhile. It's not uncommon for Christians to fall into a rut when it comes to our walk with God. Sometimes it's not even on purpose, but we just get so busy with life. I think this is the case for me right now.

This morning I put my worship playlist on shuffle, and the first song that came on was "You never let go" by The David Crowder Band, which also happens to be one of the songs on my blog. This song is so fitting right now. Even when I have become so busy with life, Jesus never let's go. He never stops tugging on my heart or reminding me of how much he loves me.

In November, our baby boy was born. It was seriously the most amazing experience in my life, alongside my wedding day. I love spending countless hours with my son; holding him, feeding him, changing him, playing with him, singing to him. He has brought an unspeakable joy into the hearts of Marcos and I. With this said however, I realize that I have put God on the back burner.

I have hardly picked up my bible or prayed as my soul longs to. I was reading today and this is a verse that stuck out to me.

"The unfolding of your words gives light; it gives understanding to the simple. I open my mouth and pant, longing for your commands. Turn to me and have mercy on me, as you always do to those who love your name." - Psalm 119:131-132

I don't know about you, but as a Christian I'm not okay being stagnant in my walk with God. I don't want to just be comfortable where I'm at in life. I want to be continuously seeking my King and learning how I can better serve him in the hopes of changing this world for HIS glory. Even if it is in the everyday, repetitive things like being a wife and mommy. Or for others, a student or co-worker. No matter the life-stage we are in, whether we are young or old, single or married, working or taking care of babies; God is at work in our lives and he is using us for a bigger purpose.

Sometimes in life, things are so good that we forget to make God a part of it. He should be the biggest part because it is he who made it happen. I think this has been the case for me lately. I am so comfortable in my life right now, but I pray that is no reason for me not to trust or lean on my sweet Jesus every single day. I don't want to just be intimate with my heavenly father when life is hard. I want that Divine Romance every day.

Today my prayer is this:

Lord, thank you for the amazing blessings you have poured into my life. I have such a grateful heart, yet I feel stagnant in my walk with you. Help me to prioritize my time so that I make time for you. Help me to spend more time in your word so that I can be the wife and mother you created me to be. Just as the best thing I can do for my son is to love my husband; I know the best thing I can do for both of them is to love my Jesus. I don't want to be a lazy christian. I want to seek more of you. Lord, draw me close. Use me.

p.s. Thank you for never letting go :)

Amen.